my LIFE...

Why are you so IMperfEct....

never obey me...

Just you wander without taking care, the fences I have made... So that will be remain inside of my arena...

you never think... if some day you will flew away far from me, then how will i even sought your name... without having my Life in me.

Aren't you aware that you are "My Life"....

But honestly; although i'm a little teased...

but i like the Way You Are.

The way you follow my Heart and beats with it....without caring my rules...

it makes me feel Alive... nourish me...spark my Creativity...

and often dips me into your Love...

So My Sweetheart... tease me more.

Be a little more PERFECT....IMperFeCtly...

I Love You... <3 <3 <3

a JOURNEY...

It’s a JOURNEY… and we are ‘blind passengers’, sitting in the train…

A train that passes through station to station…

Though it stops at every station… so that we will ‘identify ours’ and will alight over it…

But unfortunately, even hearing the noise of vendors and people over there… we could not see, at which we have reached.

It is not that, we can’t ask to the person sitting beside of us… but what can be the worse…

“He is also BLIND.”

This way we travel for our whole life…just in delusion that someday someone will come to us to let us know, that ‘we are reached’…

but not everyone is not fortunate enough to have this privilege…

May someday we will break our ‘numbness’ and will make noise for the DESTINATION we have to reach…

And although it would be wrong, but we will dare to come down on a PLATFORM…!!!

Music of life

Music of life is very soothing.

It’s relaxing like I’m sitting in deep forest and sweet slow breeze touching my face, combing my hairs, and murmuring something in my ear…

Everlasting feeling with unbreakable relaxation….

All I need to LISTEN silently…

Every layer peel out one by one,

Daily rush, useless fuss… her ignorance, work hindrance…and so forth.

Ultimately a beautiful light comes up… twinkling, full of color…

 all it want me to close my eyes… to SEE…the brilliance.

Slowly it takes me into the ocean of peace… infinitely deep, extremely calm, without a single ripple…

Everything is trace and drowning inside…

Telling me… to not just remain stand on the bank…but to dive…to fathom the depth…to drown in JOY…

खुदा

अनोखा ये एहसास है, खुद में मिल जाने का...

कमियों के बीच कहीं, पूरा सा दीखता हूँ...

व्यथाए कुछ कम हैं, द्वेष भी नहीं रहा ...

लगता है जैसे की, खुद को पा लिया ||

अब ना अकेला हूँ, जिन्दगी के सफ़र में...

जज्बा भी कहीं अब दीखता नहीं टूटता...

विश्वाश की डोर ये, कही तो बधीं है...

लगता है जैसे की, खुद को मैंने पा लिया ||

अब ना है निराशा, ना ही तो कमी है...

जवाब हर सवाल का, मुझमे ही कहीं है...

करम ये तेरा है, मेरा कुछ भी नहीं.... ऐ खुदा !!

लगता है जैसे की, तुझको मैंने पा लिया ||

                                    अभय कुमार

                                    १६ अप्रैल २०१५

समंदर

कहीं मैयत, तो कहीं महफ़िलें देखता हूँ...
कहीं धोखा तो कहीं लोग सच्चे देखता हूँ...
कहीं खिलती आँखे, तो कहीं आंसू देखता हूँ...
कहीं आलिशान महल तो कहीं ठिठुरते बच्चे देखता हूँ |

कहीं बेबस बुढ़ापा तो कहीं मधहोश जवानी देखता हूँ...
कहीं टूटते ख्वाब तो कहीं बुलंदियां झुकते देखता हूँ...
कहीं मोहोबत्त तो कहीं लम्बी रंजिशे देखता हूँ...
शांत वादियों में भी कभी बस्तियां लुटते देखता हूँ ||

कहीं अटूट विश्वाश तो कहीं टूटते मंदिर देखता हूँ...
घनघोर अंधेरों में भी कभी उजियारे अन्दर देखता हूँ...
देखता हूँ कभी, उफनती इस सागर की लहरों को...
बंद आँखों से कभी, खुद में ये समंदर देखता हूँ |||

By.... अभय कुमार
4 feb 2015

Surrender yourself... to the GOD who takes away all our imprudence and sins...

Surrender

Through the days on burning sand,
I walked bare footed and sweat.
Never wished for my dry throat,
A drop of water to wet.

All the moments I always ran,
Without a shelter or shade.
No matter u did never notice,
I was always quiet and glad.

I fainted and rose, and fainted and rose,
But let my steps on desert way.
Accepted the pain whenever u gave.
“No” never I put, the order u gave.

My master I know; I’m slave of yours.
It’s nothing the toil whatever I do,
When a day will come; I’ll lay down,
I know you’ll take in lap of you…

Abhay Kumar

First Lesson Of "SENSing NATURE"

Someday at home, i asked my mother "amm... in this rush from school to college, i sometimes realize that i definitely skipped some chapters of life. What you say is this right?” I was not expecting such powerful answer that she spontaneously poured out "obviously, you did. Life meant more than just the knowledge in those piebald pages, we are ignoramus if don’t ever sense the NATURE around. We are dried indeed being floating in the pool of wisdom."  I dint know, that these world will take me in a long journey of self-contemplation.
Well the journey yet not completed, but I find that “SENSING NATURE” is not just a couple of word, but it’s a complete course, which everyone needs to do for being educated actually. More interesting, it is free all time but priceless, and can be start at any stage of our life. And finally I read some of those skipped chapters, although the study is continued.
Among those countless chapters,one of them tells us about our existence which is the first chapter of that course.  As all of us know the concept of mortality, which is the prime truth. But beyond this we usually forget that we all are natural creature, just single things which distinguish us from other natural things is the liberty of our thought-process. God created everything else, and made a constitution of living on earth. Same as others, we too have to follow a Law i.e. “Long Original Valuable Emotion” or simply LOVE.  This law is needed to follow extensively in every moment and with everything. I also find that the nature is so strict, means whenever we try to breach this law; we are fined in the form of our Happiness.
So at last I realize that, “if we don’t want to get punish, then we need to stay out of our way
ward habits, and selfishness. Because both of them seed a trivial emotion of “LOVELESSNESS”

How We Take.

I remember a story, in which a man thrown all the diamonds into the sea. He thought that they were stones, as he had been sick due to his unawareness, and as soon as he brought that piece of stone, front of his eyes, he fainted seeing the brilliance of that. But then, he couldn't do anything besides regretting.

         That’s how we throwing all our breaths into the ocean of our time-line. I think he (God) gives equal opportunities to each of us, more precisely say “our breaths”, to understand ourselves.  And when we put our steps on the track of self-realization, we start understanding; which things are Possible, which is NOT, also which Should Actually Be Possible, which Should NEVER Be. And sooner or later, a time comes when we get able to filter them…

          This is a natural as well as a universal truth, that awareness is as small as a seed. But if it gets a susceptible environment to grow, then it transforms in the form of a huge tree, whose fruits are divine.

            It really up to us, how we take those (our breaths)… JUST take J or ACTUALLY take J

पहचान

कभी..., शब्दों के भंडार मे से, वो एक शब्द खोज लेना, काफ़ी मुश्किल होता है, जो किसी रचना को शुरू कर दे। यह उतना ही मुश्किल होता है, जितना की इस संसार की भीड़ मे खोइ अपनी पहचान को ढूंढना। वो पहचान जो अनगिनत परछाइयों के बीच कहीं अलग थलग हो गई है।

यह दुनियां सच मुच में अजीब सी है, जो किसी के जन्म लेने से पहले ही, उसका भाग्य तय कर देती है। आपको किस रास्ते पर चलना है; लगभग पहले से ही तय होता है। पर जब कभी हम अपनी विशिष्टताओं को जानने की कोशिश करते हैं, तो प्राय: हम खुद को किसी दूसरे ही रूप में पाते हैं, और वह रूप ही शायद हमारी असली पहचान होती है।

आज ये सब लिखने का कारण, शायद मेरे दोस्त के मुंह से निकले वही कुछ शब्द हैं… जिनमें मुझे एक लेखक बनने की सलाह दी गई थी। खैर ऐसे शब्द, सामान्यतः कुछ पल के लिये मेरी वेदना बढा देते हैं। पर मैं फ़िर से अपनी वेदना को शान्त कर वापस जीवन के उसी सामान्य ढर्रे में आ जाता हूं। हाँ यह सच है, कि लीक से हट के किसी का अपनी ही खोज मे निकल जाना एक अत्यंत कठिन निर्णय है। पर दूसरा सच यह भी है, कि विशिष्ठ  वही हैं, जो उस भिहड़ से अपने असली प्रतिबिम्ब को खींच लाने में सफ़ल रहे। वास्तव में वे ही सफ़ल हैं, और वें ही पूरे हैं।

काश हम भी कभी उन रास्तों पर जाने की हिम्मत जुटा सकें, जहां हम अपनी रचना को पूरा कर पायें, और मै भी “कभी” ऐसा शब्द खोज लूं जो मेरी रचना पूरी कर दे…॥

अभय कुमार

My poem "INSIDE"; although all we r drone somewhere in darkness but some inspirations always give us a call to START WITH NEW BEGINNINGS...that's how God is Inside us

"INSIDE"

Itself they (eyes) were closed slowly.

When I asked to see Inside...

There were Just guilt and sins around.

Was nothing, Just dark and dark; besides.

I moved the curtains that bled to dark.

Perhaps a ray may have left somewhere.

But hopes had fall, with tears and all.

Oh god! I had done just sins forever.